Summer is Gone...

LONG time no talk....type...whatever lol. I am out of high school and heading to college in the fall and it has me worried like no other. It's going to be such a big change at a humongous school in a small room with someone i've never met with harder classes.........ya nerve racking. Trying to figure out a way to manage it isn't the easiest either.

The entire situation with my dad has just gotten ridiculous. It was nothing wrong and then everything I said was a sign of "me being mad at him" but you know what? I never said he did anything wrong. I don't know what his deal is. Then he had the audacity to blame my mom for our relationship. He yelled at her saying she turned me against him and all this other stuff and I'm just like....what the f@#& is your problem??? But then of course he ignores me completely no matter what I say and then acts like nothing ever happened! SMMFH It is SO irritating. He needs to own up and be a man AND a father and see what he did wrong.

As far as love life...well thats fine i guess nothing bad nothing super good.

With high school being over, i'm starting to see that "friends" aren't really what they say they are. I'm so tired of being soooooooo nice and being taken advantage of because of it as a person and a friend. How do you even change something like that? I don't even know. I was reading this book in borders that said "You need to know that no one cares about who you were in high school. It's time to start with a clean plate. " I'm glad of that but it scares me too. I will know like 2-3 people there from school and like 3 from orientation. I'm really shy and although there is a leader in me, sometimes I don't know how to make it come out.

This blog is gonna become my best friend cause I'm not good with writing in journals everyday so maybe this will help.

I have a book to read for school too so maybe i'll blog about that on here too.

That's it for now.

Jen.L <3