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So, I'm sitting next to my friend and we're reading the Blue Jays newspaper online and all of a sudden I saw a picture of one of my oldest friends and where he was ging to school. Somewhere I don't want to go of course. I am really just a little...hurt I guess...maybe let down...to be honest I have no fuckin idea what I feel. I'm angry and hurt and I guess a little of everything. He's going to Eastern...I am not even considering there...part of me wants to cry. He's always been there for me and now... I mean ok, he and I haven't been that close in a verrrrrrrry long time but he was there when I needed him when I was younger and he was the person he looked out for me and cared for me when I broke my ankle and let me hold his chain when he played basketball and now...! It won't happen again!! I hate him! I hate loving him as a friend and as more! All I've done is look out for him and he's always been there! I...he didn't do anything wrong by deciding to go there but now...now it's really goodbye. I don't know how to let him go...