It hurt, not that you care...

So yea, remember that girl that I said kicked me? She still aint talkin to me. I texted her later that day and she was like I aint know you was crying, how would I know unless you tell me and stuff and I said well you coulda asked or said I'm sorry what's wrong or something! and she said well I like to be left alone when I'm mad, so I left you alone. All I said back was if you say so. That's the last thing we said to each other. I'm not tryna throw no tantrum but I'm no longer gonna be the bigger person, especially cause I aint do shit wrong. So lets start me n this girls friendship off from the beginning (for the record, I was fine before she told her mom who told my mom about wanting to be friends)...

So over the summer, and during registration, my mom had been meeting with a few other parents about the ANP after graduation night. They were trying to raise money and all that jazz. Anyway, my mom ended up tellin me that one of the other moms was talking about her daughter. And when she said who it was immediately all I thought was she's popular and stuck up and all this other stuff based off of what I heard and what I observed. I didn't want to be her friend, but you know what, as time moved along, I realized she wasn't that bad and I didn't get why so many people felt that way and I felt bad for jumping the gun. We became close friends fast, although part of me was always hesitant {that something like this would happen!!!} but I let it go. She tells me stuff and I tell her stuff. We became close to, if not, best friends. That's why it hurts so bad. Me n my bestie{different person} have fought before but she can always tell when its something wrong with me. It hurts that someone that wanted to get to know me so well, who will get in my face about EVERYTHING, who always asks what's wrong when it's something wrong with me, couldn't even tell I was crying and I was a foot in front of her. Don't misunderstand, I know friends fight. The thing is, I know she aint gonna say a word about it unless I say something first...I'm not going to. This whole thing is dumb and it got blown wayyyyyyyyy too far, but hell, this is my life. It's always some kind of drama sometime happening to me.

I've made a couple new friends though this year that have the potential to be long term/best friends. We'll see what happens. Life always throws a curveball when you don't need it. Then again, I remember somebody telling my that God never puts more on your plate then what you can handle. My opinion? He puttin wayyyyyyyy to much food on my plate this week. This was some dessert on the side I didn't deserve. And it hurt.

♥ J.L. ♥