Day in the Life

It always seems like their is something to do...why did break have to end??? Between NHS and Spanish Club and Class Board and AP Classes it NEVER ENDS! Don't get me wrong I love all those things but I am running on two hours of sleep and I know I won't finish it all. Not to mention some days I just want me time. For example, today I have AP Bio definitions and I need to finish copying over the notes and TAKE notes of my own, I need to start reading the AP Gov chapter, finish reading AP Psych and read chapter two for AP Lit. Plus I need to write some stuff for creative writing but I probably won't do that today. Also I have to start writing out a character chart for Lit...it's a lot. I need some way of organizing it all. I'm just so tired it's crazy.

In other news, Christmas was cool. DIdn't get a lot but I didn't really ask for anything. I became obsessed with this Manga series and finished reading all of the books that were out in one week. New Years was ok, didn't really do much. To be honest, I hate new years. Here's why:

• All I ended up thinking about was how I'm graduating this year meaning it's the end of my childhood and to be frank, I'm scared out my f***in ming.
• How I let one of my best friends slip through my fingers and now he's nothing like I remember and completely dropped me from his radar and its BREAKING MY HEART! but I don't show it. I wish he would wake up and see how I feel.
• The people who I thought were friends I'm starting to see really aren't and thats hurting me too.
• It makes me think of how I hate how I look and never have the ambition to change. Every "new year" I try and every year its never any difference.

Other than that, relaxing over break was wonderful. I did not touch a single text book and it was great lol. Of course now that school is back together I'm back to being paranoid about my grades. Hopefully I'll do good on finals and it'll give my g.p.a a humongous boost that I could use to stay in NHS. All for now.

XOXO Gossip Girl.......lol lame I know.

J.L.